Sadly, I'm feeling a little down and don't really feel like yay-ing about my day, cause to be honest, it wasn't such a great day. I promise, though, I will try my best to change it.
Well, my cousin got married this week. His wedding was the weirdest wedding I've ever attended; and Iv'e been to not so few weddings. Now, before I'll start bitching about this wedding and the many-many things I didn't like about it, let me just say that I don't want to state any country, faith, religion or another shit, cause it's really not about it. I'd like to keep it like "global", you know what I mean? Great.
Right so, a few years back, all my older male cousins (from mom's side of the family) got very religious, like a born again christians. Now, when a person who wasn't very religious turns religious, that person usualy is more EXTREME than others. And radical. Like really. So this wedding was a religious sort of wedding, and which there was specific dress codes, specific rituals and one weirdo of a priest. This cousin and his wife believed they shouldn't touch each other before the wedding. I'm sorry, but this is a shit idea. The original idea is to be pure for the wedding, but, does a hug make you unpure? A hand shake? Please. So yeah, even when he proposed to her, instead of jumping on him and give him a massive hug of joy, they just stared at each over... I'm far from being religious. If it was me, I would give my fiance a big kiss and basically drag him to the closest room and once again express our love physically. In my opinion, not touching each other, at all, is a very stupid idea. What if he's a lousy kisser? What if he's suck in bed? Why would I marry a guy who isn't good for me in bed? Come on, sex is a major part of it. I know, practice makes perfection, but in some cases, it doesn't, so why should I take this risk? Now back to the wedding. When the priest pronounce "You are now Man and Wife! You may kiss the bride :D", you oughta give that special someone the perfect kiss. >> Seems like dear ol' cousin rather hug the priest instead of kissing his wife after he didn't even touch her? You might be a very up-tight religious dude, but come on, bro! Where's your teenager's lust?! >> Sister was right to note that it looked like he was marrying the priest instead of her. Poor girl... She was just standing her, doesn't know what the fuck to do with herself now...
Yeah.... VERY weird....
So what kind of emotions did he have for her to propose to her, if he couldn't even express them? >> I'm pretty sure he didn't tell her "Hun, I love you very much!" or something like that. How can you marry a person who cannot actually express his love for you in matter of words or actions? If they got married just from religious points of view then... I pity them.
I would love to get married someday. My main reason is those fancy white dresses, I simply love it. Also it is a celebration of two people's love. There is a beautiful thing in that very old tradition. I don't want to marry someone cause I HAVE to. I want to get married out of love (as I am a hopeless romantic person). I want to marry a person who I'm deeply sure of him feelings for me and I of my feelings for him.
Though in a way, I am kind of jealous... I want a person in my life. *Sigh*...
And oh yes, I'm feeling down from jealousy, and frustration from studying once again... I just wish this exam to be over already. In one month it will be over. In exactly one month from now, I'll be free ^^. Oh I can't wait. Also causing I'm DYING to play the new Skyrim: The Elder Scrolls game... Cause it looks fucking amazing.
I think I have a raid on WoW soon ^^
Have a great week people! I'll try to be more cheerful next post :)
Darl x
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Love is the wisdom of the fool and the folly of the wise
1) Yay of the Day - To find out a very funny fanart, and to keep LoL about it all day.
2) Quote of the Day - "When I get sad, I just stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story." - Barney Stinson of How I Met Your Mother.
3) Dumb Thing of the Day - Walking to my room carrying the dirty dishes after lunch, and wondering what the hell have I been thinking to myself...
This post is a quote from a tiny wee book, called "The best things in life begins with L". This spesific quote was of a man named Samuel Johnson. I have no idea who this guy is, but he makes a darn good point. I got this tiny wee book (it IS tiny, it can fit in one's pocket) from a gift shop, in a cathedral in Liverpool, England, when I was 13. This spesific quote has been a guide line to me, and I find it most fitting to me, and my own life. Why? Simple. I am anything but stupid. When I love someone, I am anything but smart. I tend to lose my head in romance, and in fact, it's what I'm going to discuss about today.
Elvis Presley said in his famous song: "Wise men say, only fools rush in..." Yeah, he was right, and it was said over 50 years ago. Sad fact, but I get emotionally attached to people very fast. I adore the people in my life, I love each and everyone of them. If I am to go on a blind date, and find out the guy is actually a keeper, I'll do what it takes to keep this one too; even if it means have a huge crush on him. Now, unlike Elvis, I do not fall in love with this one-time-blind-date. But I get attached. Figures it is a big deal for me to let go, and it follows up by too many tears.
As I said before, I'm a 21 year old virgin, a rare species. I'm also someone who still believes in love. Yeah, I know what you might think, 'Dude, she watched too many chick-flicks' or whatever. Thing is, I always believed in love, even as a little girl. Here we can blame Disney for it. Like in modern Disney films, such as Shrek, even he, a massive anti-social ogre finds his "happily ever after" with Fiona. Are we wrong to believe in such tales, that even the most repulsive beings in the worlds deserve to be loved? Of course not. When someone is loved, all he/she does is good. When someone is alone, and unloved, however, all he/she does is bad, mainly being depressed. We all deserve it. Deep inside, I believe we all want love, heck, we all crave for it. I am a hopeless romantic who still believes in romance, and love, and tiny hearts above my head when I this is one special guy. I crave love, this is what I want from life. Love. I dated many guys, and none made me feel he's worthy of my love. Bunch of guys who, I do mean it when I say it, I hope they'll find the one who'll love them. Cause, again, we all deserve it. The media is out to brainwash me with love. It is practically EVERYWHERE we look. Commercials, flims, TV series, books, and even, video games. As an amatuer writer, I write about love. Why? Cause I love it. My characters, like everywhere really, finally find love after struggles (It won't come very easy, now). They finally in each others' arms, laying together. Heart warming. Wanna puke. Same question popes to my head everytime - What about moi? Doesn't moi deserve some of the good stuff? Of course moi does! <3
You might as yourself, am I in love right now? It's complicated. I have feelings for a certain person, and like I told him, I will always will. But, being far away, we can only BE when physically meet. My feelings for him doesn't keep me from seeing other people. Heck, I even wanted someone while having these feelings. Lucky me, he feels the same way back. BUT, again, distance. Love today becomes world-wide. It IS possible, yet it's not very cheap. One does have to come to the other's country. I know of a couple who made this kind of love possible, and I adore them both, cause they are simply amazing together. My secret wish is to make this kind of love possible for me too, cause I can't seem to find decent guys here.
Now back to the virgin issue. I have been thinking lately. I want to have sex. I think about sex like a dude. ALOT. Can't really measure how many times a day, but alot nonetheless. Is it ok to have sex with a good friend, whom you know so good and well? Just for the first time, I wash off this VIRGIN remark on my forehead, that keeps all the guys 10miles away. Iv'e been wondering about it alot. Would be interesting, to finally figure out what all the fuzz is about (Actually I do know what all the fuzz is about, it's a great thing that people wouldn't have been doing it unless it rocks and feels good). Could be. But who knows? Right now, I can't be bothered with planning my first time, I have to pass this exam in order to finally make sometime for planning this.
Of course, I'd like to sleep with someone I love, but, I fear that because I want to love, I won't get to have it soon... I can sattle to sleep with someone I like and care about (like a good friend) which doesn't require me to fall in love with him. <3
Allow me, in the spirit of love, share with you the most Romantic video game character ever. The game being Dragon Age: Origins, set in the background of war, chaos and blight. Now, you, as a grey warden (now let's talk about the female warden) can romance the other grey warden Alistair. My guy friends call him gay. He ain't no gay. He is the true idialistic male. When he falls for the female warden he worships her, with his loveable British accent and knight's good manners. Sometimes, he starts a chat with "Your desire is my command". How hot is that?! Besides the fact that he actually looks good, he's also perfect in my eyes. Funny, I'm not the only female gamer who thinks that ^^. He is the type of guy who's willing to take the final blow and die for the one he loves. He offers a rose as a token of love, picked in a place who is now full of death. How can something so beautiful can grow in all this chaos? It simply does, because again, love has a magical way toying with us and with fate. <3
Till next time,
Darl, the Love Fool (truelly, that is a WoW title!) <3
2) Quote of the Day - "When I get sad, I just stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story." - Barney Stinson of How I Met Your Mother.
3) Dumb Thing of the Day - Walking to my room carrying the dirty dishes after lunch, and wondering what the hell have I been thinking to myself...
This post is a quote from a tiny wee book, called "The best things in life begins with L". This spesific quote was of a man named Samuel Johnson. I have no idea who this guy is, but he makes a darn good point. I got this tiny wee book (it IS tiny, it can fit in one's pocket) from a gift shop, in a cathedral in Liverpool, England, when I was 13. This spesific quote has been a guide line to me, and I find it most fitting to me, and my own life. Why? Simple. I am anything but stupid. When I love someone, I am anything but smart. I tend to lose my head in romance, and in fact, it's what I'm going to discuss about today.
Elvis Presley said in his famous song: "Wise men say, only fools rush in..." Yeah, he was right, and it was said over 50 years ago. Sad fact, but I get emotionally attached to people very fast. I adore the people in my life, I love each and everyone of them. If I am to go on a blind date, and find out the guy is actually a keeper, I'll do what it takes to keep this one too; even if it means have a huge crush on him. Now, unlike Elvis, I do not fall in love with this one-time-blind-date. But I get attached. Figures it is a big deal for me to let go, and it follows up by too many tears.
As I said before, I'm a 21 year old virgin, a rare species. I'm also someone who still believes in love. Yeah, I know what you might think, 'Dude, she watched too many chick-flicks' or whatever. Thing is, I always believed in love, even as a little girl. Here we can blame Disney for it. Like in modern Disney films, such as Shrek, even he, a massive anti-social ogre finds his "happily ever after" with Fiona. Are we wrong to believe in such tales, that even the most repulsive beings in the worlds deserve to be loved? Of course not. When someone is loved, all he/she does is good. When someone is alone, and unloved, however, all he/she does is bad, mainly being depressed. We all deserve it. Deep inside, I believe we all want love, heck, we all crave for it. I am a hopeless romantic who still believes in romance, and love, and tiny hearts above my head when I this is one special guy. I crave love, this is what I want from life. Love. I dated many guys, and none made me feel he's worthy of my love. Bunch of guys who, I do mean it when I say it, I hope they'll find the one who'll love them. Cause, again, we all deserve it. The media is out to brainwash me with love. It is practically EVERYWHERE we look. Commercials, flims, TV series, books, and even, video games. As an amatuer writer, I write about love. Why? Cause I love it. My characters, like everywhere really, finally find love after struggles (It won't come very easy, now). They finally in each others' arms, laying together. Heart warming. Wanna puke. Same question popes to my head everytime - What about moi? Doesn't moi deserve some of the good stuff? Of course moi does! <3
You might as yourself, am I in love right now? It's complicated. I have feelings for a certain person, and like I told him, I will always will. But, being far away, we can only BE when physically meet. My feelings for him doesn't keep me from seeing other people. Heck, I even wanted someone while having these feelings. Lucky me, he feels the same way back. BUT, again, distance. Love today becomes world-wide. It IS possible, yet it's not very cheap. One does have to come to the other's country. I know of a couple who made this kind of love possible, and I adore them both, cause they are simply amazing together. My secret wish is to make this kind of love possible for me too, cause I can't seem to find decent guys here.
Now back to the virgin issue. I have been thinking lately. I want to have sex. I think about sex like a dude. ALOT. Can't really measure how many times a day, but alot nonetheless. Is it ok to have sex with a good friend, whom you know so good and well? Just for the first time, I wash off this VIRGIN remark on my forehead, that keeps all the guys 10miles away. Iv'e been wondering about it alot. Would be interesting, to finally figure out what all the fuzz is about (Actually I do know what all the fuzz is about, it's a great thing that people wouldn't have been doing it unless it rocks and feels good). Could be. But who knows? Right now, I can't be bothered with planning my first time, I have to pass this exam in order to finally make sometime for planning this.
Of course, I'd like to sleep with someone I love, but, I fear that because I want to love, I won't get to have it soon... I can sattle to sleep with someone I like and care about (like a good friend) which doesn't require me to fall in love with him. <3
Allow me, in the spirit of love, share with you the most Romantic video game character ever. The game being Dragon Age: Origins, set in the background of war, chaos and blight. Now, you, as a grey warden (now let's talk about the female warden) can romance the other grey warden Alistair. My guy friends call him gay. He ain't no gay. He is the true idialistic male. When he falls for the female warden he worships her, with his loveable British accent and knight's good manners. Sometimes, he starts a chat with "Your desire is my command". How hot is that?! Besides the fact that he actually looks good, he's also perfect in my eyes. Funny, I'm not the only female gamer who thinks that ^^. He is the type of guy who's willing to take the final blow and die for the one he loves. He offers a rose as a token of love, picked in a place who is now full of death. How can something so beautiful can grow in all this chaos? It simply does, because again, love has a magical way toying with us and with fate. <3
Till next time,
Darl, the Love Fool (truelly, that is a WoW title!) <3
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Just Can't Get Enough
Ahoy hoy!
1) Yay of the Day - Nothing beats the feeling after you completed all of your chores! Ah, I'm free for the next 24 hours.
2) Quote of the Day - "It grins, it follows, it is unstoppable!!" - TotalBiscuit about the Singing Sunflower pet.
3) Dumb Thing of the Day - Mistaken the number 2 for 4... >.> Thus failed in a math problem.
"Just Can't Get Enough" is a 10man achievement in WoW, where you defeat Kel'Thuzad (the most kickass Lich in the game) while killing at least 18 abominations in his chamber. Was one of the most epic fights I ever been in, since we went there 3 people (whilst a 10man level 80 raid boss), me and my friends Kal and Ossirian. T'was an epic fight since after Kal and I died (at the very beginning of phase 2), Ossi was able to finish the boss alone! He has earned my respect as a kickass player.
Last post I talked about how my family keeps making me feel akward, and about a guy dear uncle tried to fix me up with. Now, after the nerdrage and the blind date, I'm not as pissed as I used to be. Seems like a nice guy, nerdy (I actually like nerds) and here comes the big BUT: But, there wasn't a spark. I am really not attracted to him. Not that he's ugly but I wasn't really into him, and talking to him is like talking to a friend with no potential of becoming a boyfriend; more of the more reason is, he has a pretty big chance of leaving the country and go to study in the US. I am not going to get emotionally intouched with someone who might leave pretty soon, since long distance relationship simply doesn't work! (Iv'e been there before...). So yeah, I think he could be a friend, but not a boyfriend.
Allow me to be very blunt and say that these phase of my life is pretty sucks. Why? I have a good explaination. Right now, I study for an exam to get into university. It is the most dumbest thing ever. In my opinion it doesn't measure anything about me, 'cept for how long I can sit on my ass and study useless materials which I will never use again in my life. This exam includes Maths, English and my naitve language. They expect you to learn shitloads of stuff in 2 and a half months. Trust me, I did this exam before, didn't do so well, but to learn everything and know everything RIGHT this specific amount of time simply just isn't enough. So I took on a special course, started last month and still have it till December, Christmas time. T_T This is the most exsausting thing ever. My friend said that this exam practically takes away 4 months of your life, and that's why he is not going through it. Lucky for him he has a decent job. For a person who is not so great with Maths, this exam is a pure pain. They teach me things I haven't even learned in highschool, and I'm supoused to be succeeded in them all during a short time. This is so frustrating... My friend was right, I basically have no life at the moment, 'cept for studying this shit, and WoWing abit in the wee hours. I study all day till my brain shuts down around 7pm. I really don't have any strenght to go out or something and not to mention seeing people. It turns me into this obnoxious bitch who can't stand anyone. And since it's the second time I go through with this exam, it is more frustrating than ever.
But I decieded with myself that I am going through with it, give it all that I got, and take this exam knowing I did my best. And if I still can't a decent score, I will know I have really tried my best, and it was the best I could do. (Cause I ain't taking that exam ever again! 2 times are more than enough!).
For a lighter thing on my mind, Iv'e encountered a podcast of an american dude called Pride. What he and he's friends talk about in his show is mainly the lore of the game Warcraft. I think behind every good game, there's an awesome story. Games based on stories (of all kinds) are purely the best, and they can evelope during the playthrough. Was is nice about WoW is that with every patch and expansion, the story evelopes and continues. As an amateur writer, I simply adore a good story and love to see how a character changes within the story. So basically, cause this game and its story are massive, people tend to talk about it alot. And listening to a radio show about it is much more fun!
Now they try to figure out what the lore will be on the upcoming patch Mists of Panderia or MoP for shorts. They have some solid ideas :)
Neil promised me an Icecrown Citadel raid for my birhday.. I still wait for it >.> <3
Till next time,
Darl, the magical space-goat <3
1) Yay of the Day - Nothing beats the feeling after you completed all of your chores! Ah, I'm free for the next 24 hours.
2) Quote of the Day - "It grins, it follows, it is unstoppable!!" - TotalBiscuit about the Singing Sunflower pet.
3) Dumb Thing of the Day - Mistaken the number 2 for 4... >.> Thus failed in a math problem.
"Just Can't Get Enough" is a 10man achievement in WoW, where you defeat Kel'Thuzad (the most kickass Lich in the game) while killing at least 18 abominations in his chamber. Was one of the most epic fights I ever been in, since we went there 3 people (whilst a 10man level 80 raid boss), me and my friends Kal and Ossirian. T'was an epic fight since after Kal and I died (at the very beginning of phase 2), Ossi was able to finish the boss alone! He has earned my respect as a kickass player.
Last post I talked about how my family keeps making me feel akward, and about a guy dear uncle tried to fix me up with. Now, after the nerdrage and the blind date, I'm not as pissed as I used to be. Seems like a nice guy, nerdy (I actually like nerds) and here comes the big BUT: But, there wasn't a spark. I am really not attracted to him. Not that he's ugly but I wasn't really into him, and talking to him is like talking to a friend with no potential of becoming a boyfriend; more of the more reason is, he has a pretty big chance of leaving the country and go to study in the US. I am not going to get emotionally intouched with someone who might leave pretty soon, since long distance relationship simply doesn't work! (Iv'e been there before...). So yeah, I think he could be a friend, but not a boyfriend.
Allow me to be very blunt and say that these phase of my life is pretty sucks. Why? I have a good explaination. Right now, I study for an exam to get into university. It is the most dumbest thing ever. In my opinion it doesn't measure anything about me, 'cept for how long I can sit on my ass and study useless materials which I will never use again in my life. This exam includes Maths, English and my naitve language. They expect you to learn shitloads of stuff in 2 and a half months. Trust me, I did this exam before, didn't do so well, but to learn everything and know everything RIGHT this specific amount of time simply just isn't enough. So I took on a special course, started last month and still have it till December, Christmas time. T_T This is the most exsausting thing ever. My friend said that this exam practically takes away 4 months of your life, and that's why he is not going through it. Lucky for him he has a decent job. For a person who is not so great with Maths, this exam is a pure pain. They teach me things I haven't even learned in highschool, and I'm supoused to be succeeded in them all during a short time. This is so frustrating... My friend was right, I basically have no life at the moment, 'cept for studying this shit, and WoWing abit in the wee hours. I study all day till my brain shuts down around 7pm. I really don't have any strenght to go out or something and not to mention seeing people. It turns me into this obnoxious bitch who can't stand anyone. And since it's the second time I go through with this exam, it is more frustrating than ever.
But I decieded with myself that I am going through with it, give it all that I got, and take this exam knowing I did my best. And if I still can't a decent score, I will know I have really tried my best, and it was the best I could do. (Cause I ain't taking that exam ever again! 2 times are more than enough!).
For a lighter thing on my mind, Iv'e encountered a podcast of an american dude called Pride. What he and he's friends talk about in his show is mainly the lore of the game Warcraft. I think behind every good game, there's an awesome story. Games based on stories (of all kinds) are purely the best, and they can evelope during the playthrough. Was is nice about WoW is that with every patch and expansion, the story evelopes and continues. As an amateur writer, I simply adore a good story and love to see how a character changes within the story. So basically, cause this game and its story are massive, people tend to talk about it alot. And listening to a radio show about it is much more fun!
Now they try to figure out what the lore will be on the upcoming patch Mists of Panderia or MoP for shorts. They have some solid ideas :)
Neil promised me an Icecrown Citadel raid for my birhday.. I still wait for it >.> <3
Till next time,
Darl, the magical space-goat <3
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