1) Yay of the Day - To find out a very funny fanart, and to keep LoL about it all day.
2) Quote of the Day - "When I get sad, I just stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story." - Barney Stinson of How I Met Your Mother.
3) Dumb Thing of the Day - Walking to my room carrying the dirty dishes after lunch, and wondering what the hell have I been thinking to myself...
This post is a quote from a tiny wee book, called "The best things in life begins with L". This spesific quote was of a man named Samuel Johnson. I have no idea who this guy is, but he makes a darn good point. I got this tiny wee book (it IS tiny, it can fit in one's pocket) from a gift shop, in a cathedral in Liverpool, England, when I was 13. This spesific quote has been a guide line to me, and I find it most fitting to me, and my own life. Why? Simple. I am anything but stupid. When I love someone, I am anything but smart. I tend to lose my head in romance, and in fact, it's what I'm going to discuss about today.
Elvis Presley said in his famous song: "Wise men say, only fools rush in..." Yeah, he was right, and it was said over 50 years ago. Sad fact, but I get emotionally attached to people very fast. I adore the people in my life, I love each and everyone of them. If I am to go on a blind date, and find out the guy is actually a keeper, I'll do what it takes to keep this one too; even if it means have a huge crush on him. Now, unlike Elvis, I do not fall in love with this one-time-blind-date. But I get attached. Figures it is a big deal for me to let go, and it follows up by too many tears.
As I said before, I'm a 21 year old virgin, a rare species. I'm also someone who still believes in love. Yeah, I know what you might think, 'Dude, she watched too many chick-flicks' or whatever. Thing is, I always believed in love, even as a little girl. Here we can blame Disney for it. Like in modern Disney films, such as Shrek, even he, a massive anti-social ogre finds his "happily ever after" with Fiona. Are we wrong to believe in such tales, that even the most repulsive beings in the worlds deserve to be loved? Of course not. When someone is loved, all he/she does is good. When someone is alone, and unloved, however, all he/she does is bad, mainly being depressed. We all deserve it. Deep inside, I believe we all want love, heck, we all crave for it. I am a hopeless romantic who still believes in romance, and love, and tiny hearts above my head when I this is one special guy. I crave love, this is what I want from life. Love. I dated many guys, and none made me feel he's worthy of my love. Bunch of guys who, I do mean it when I say it, I hope they'll find the one who'll love them. Cause, again, we all deserve it. The media is out to brainwash me with love. It is practically EVERYWHERE we look. Commercials, flims, TV series, books, and even, video games. As an amatuer writer, I write about love. Why? Cause I love it. My characters, like everywhere really, finally find love after struggles (It won't come very easy, now). They finally in each others' arms, laying together. Heart warming. Wanna puke. Same question popes to my head everytime - What about moi? Doesn't moi deserve some of the good stuff? Of course moi does! <3
You might as yourself, am I in love right now? It's complicated. I have feelings for a certain person, and like I told him, I will always will. But, being far away, we can only BE when physically meet. My feelings for him doesn't keep me from seeing other people. Heck, I even wanted someone while having these feelings. Lucky me, he feels the same way back. BUT, again, distance. Love today becomes world-wide. It IS possible, yet it's not very cheap. One does have to come to the other's country. I know of a couple who made this kind of love possible, and I adore them both, cause they are simply amazing together. My secret wish is to make this kind of love possible for me too, cause I can't seem to find decent guys here.
Now back to the virgin issue. I have been thinking lately. I want to have sex. I think about sex like a dude. ALOT. Can't really measure how many times a day, but alot nonetheless. Is it ok to have sex with a good friend, whom you know so good and well? Just for the first time, I wash off this VIRGIN remark on my forehead, that keeps all the guys 10miles away. Iv'e been wondering about it alot. Would be interesting, to finally figure out what all the fuzz is about (Actually I do know what all the fuzz is about, it's a great thing that people wouldn't have been doing it unless it rocks and feels good). Could be. But who knows? Right now, I can't be bothered with planning my first time, I have to pass this exam in order to finally make sometime for planning this.
Of course, I'd like to sleep with someone I love, but, I fear that because I want to love, I won't get to have it soon... I can sattle to sleep with someone I like and care about (like a good friend) which doesn't require me to fall in love with him. <3
Allow me, in the spirit of love, share with you the most Romantic video game character ever. The game being Dragon Age: Origins, set in the background of war, chaos and blight. Now, you, as a grey warden (now let's talk about the female warden) can romance the other grey warden Alistair. My guy friends call him gay. He ain't no gay. He is the true idialistic male. When he falls for the female warden he worships her, with his loveable British accent and knight's good manners. Sometimes, he starts a chat with "Your desire is my command". How hot is that?! Besides the fact that he actually looks good, he's also perfect in my eyes. Funny, I'm not the only female gamer who thinks that ^^. He is the type of guy who's willing to take the final blow and die for the one he loves. He offers a rose as a token of love, picked in a place who is now full of death. How can something so beautiful can grow in all this chaos? It simply does, because again, love has a magical way toying with us and with fate. <3
Till next time,
Darl, the Love Fool (truelly, that is a WoW title!) <3
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